May 1, 2012

it is a truly hectic season.
but this is how life is. 


and i've just recovered from sickness.
and earth is getting hotter every single second.
even when u are currently sitting in once the coldest room ever and not stepping out 
under the sun even for a second.


is going to complete all the work and well just continue the never ending work.

---> really wanna watch Running Man Big Bang tapi assignment berlambak.

holidays! =)

It’s a wonderful holiday. J

Not much extravagant activities. Just the usual shopping, lotss of mamak session, home visit, karaoke, and food partayyyy! ;) I’m more than satisfied actually with my holiday. I know some would say it was just a waste o f money and time. Why meeting friends that often? But halloo. The often is needed to topup for all the lost time.

And I’m more than happy. Very much happy and satisfied. For being able to meet all my lovelies friends, BFF and dongsaengie… ;) A great CNY visit too. <3 Haha. Should’ve asked for more Mandarin orange. But cos I’m too shy, I didn’t do that. *sigh

Anyways. Friends staying in Malaysia and overseas, all reunion succeed! ;) Thank U guys for being there and willing to spent time with me. Words can’t describe how much I love u people and how glad I am to have U guys as friends for so many years already. And if we’re meeting in the next few years, who knows what U guys might become? All successful people. And maybe even a mother/father of two-three kids. J A very beautiful dream! =)

I’m starting school next week. I got my semester result already. And I’m cool with it. I could’ve done better, but let me act optimist like that please. :D I will maintain and even improve my performance. A whole new challenges for next semester.. I will bring all yr love, support and luck forward and do much much better! ^_^ Oh, I need to start reading stuff so at least my brain warm up before it’ll be put to a very stressful job starting this Monday.

This is too short for my liking. I suddenly have this ‘overflowingMUSE’? :DD LOL but before I become the new generation Shakespeare, I’d better stop. Cos I need to finish watching House! :D Take care everyone. See you guys soon! x)

this is the Dragon's Yr!

Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu, everyone! :) 


Yeah it's holiday.. Time for partayy!!~~~ just me likey. XD
Anyways. My last paper was on 18th. but i got back to Klang only evening of 19th. cos dear Dr. Fern requested for a last minute meeting. it's not a bad, bored type. Cos You know, she is that amazing and she has her own style. Sooo our generation! :DD Haha.


Anyways. It's holiday people. First of all, Happy Chinese New Year dear friends and family. Not like i'm celebrating nor is my family. Just, some of them are already my family, get it!? :) Just take care of yr health and yrself and your safety whenever and wherever you are. I know the temptations of festivities, but please do control yr food consumption. Control yr excitement, be patient and considerate too. :) Oh yeah, if you're sick, do take extra caution and also take medicine, arasso? 


:) Hm i forgot what i'm supposed to say. Just wanna tell you guys actually that i will be kinda free. With meetings and some presentation and extra project to work on, if U want to meet up, do call me up! Old frenzies esp. Did you know how much I missed you!??? :)) I've one trip planned and going to work this coming wednesday and thursday. Oh not to forget our 'Makan Besar' tomolo in BBQ Land, hurray!! :))

i simply love each of you. Everyone of you! :) <3 i really do.
Cos i still have and use my heart U-know? Although some people had recently showed their blatant stupidity with the ridiculousness of their thoughts and thinking. *anger*


Happy CNY Eve everyone. I promise to be good! :)) 

;)

It has been a very busy, extremely busy week. With exams every single day. N lots to read. N me is still me. I can never stop myself from being me and more than ordinary to other people. :DD Anyways. I can't believe, it's already entering 3rd week of January!! :))

V

Love is NOT about finding someone PERFECT for you.

But It's about finding someone who completes the IMPERFECTIONS in you! :) 

Previously I think I could live just like who I am. Cos honestly i have this hugeeee group of people called friends so I don't really bother and i don't really care about family. 

But TRUTH is, and I am glad i had the chance to realise that family is really the most important element in one's life. 

I actually hated to spend time with family (including grandmas, aunts and uncles) cos all they talk about is business and academics! Sorry but those two are subjects i hated the most. and i hated it. My young self rebelling!! XDDD but soon after finished high school. and after i've been sent away from family, living 'alone', just imagine how much I regret not really appreciating my chances of being with family, of having them and having them scold/lecture/talk to me. 

We're getting busier every single day every single moment. and holiday is very short. 

and i wish we could be given a chance to return back to the day where we not need think about money, work, study, business. 

but that's not true. At least now, even a rich 5 minutes of talking to any one of yr family members makes ur shoulder lighter. makes some, if not all the stress lifted up from yr brain and makes yr day brighter. Just the thought of having 2-3 days break and getting to spend them with yr precious family itself give that warm and incredibly awesome feelings! :) 

Anyways. Happy Christmas. Happy HOLIDAYS! :) 

And lets spend the last days of Dec 2011 with happiness, joy and full of spirit. <3 

psss : 
nope i'm not holiday-ing. I have study break to fill in with extra study.
and ish meeting jeannie soon!! ^_^ Awwe i'm ecstatic! =) 

Just Me! :)

So i just had this in mind. When i kind of reminiscing my past. My memories. All the times of the past i could recalled of. I must say I am proud of most of the things happening in my life. Of how i changed over time. How myself improving and constantly changing, all i owed to those who directly and indirectly came across my path, being one of the person who changes every bit of my life. Making it happier, sadder?, more interesting than it would've been if just living this life alone. No matter how close or further apart we were, no matter how much involvement U have in my life since I were born. I must say, I'm GLAD of meeting every single one of you. 

The sweetest or most bitter memories. Or whatever person U were once being labelled as by the Mighty Me, I, as a bipolar person myself, is sincerely thanking U guys even if U are unaware of it yourself. 


XD Haha. LOL that was a mess. But ne. Feeling like writing tis!! :))

Random-ity of Life!

So. there goes my perfect study plan. the supposed to be (24x5) hours full of study and revising when mommy decided to take half-day leave from work and fetch me up from college. I should've expected this to happen. LOL a free vacation. And mmg totally book free! :D Yeah.


And no. It's just a random travelling. Non-planned. No special place to visit. Simply going at will. yeah. Cos daddy suddenly decided it's fun to do that. Back-packing konon. last-last everybody pun skipped work! :DD haha. For 3 days! :) That's epic! But NICE! :DDD
Not much of shopping. Seriously we were acting like a very carefree people. Walking without any aims and just walk and talk and chat like we're the happiest, free-est people on Earth! :) 


But that's really are good 72 hours + xx hours of travelling! :) 

Quote of The Day!

"Some girls act like b*tches so they won't get hurt. 

Some girls are b*tches because they got hurt.

While some..are merely BORN b*tches..=) "

So.. Which are you?? XD This is quoted from Miss A! <3 Because I always love you and you when you update you status. 

*you is intended to replace everything to refer to you.

25th November 2011

i am supposed to be doing many things but each time i reached home and in comfort in my bed, wrapped like ONAGIRI, i simply lost it all. I ate like there's no tomorrow, lepak like nothing matters. talking like a somebody. and i am NOT doing any of productive things. Huhu. Work is a lot, abandoned in a corner. actually all my belongings, reference book all still in the car. :DDD and my brain can't work. even with my eyes open, i can only stare. and do nothing. Omona! I'm sure i'll be craszeee soon.


Makes me wonder is this the life i've been wanting to live for? but actually life is the same for everybody.. so i should just shut my mouth up and stop thinking of the ifs and of the what i am supposed to do and get and just concentrate on whatever things i am supposed to be focusing on rite now.


In addition, just get our MidTerm result today. and as expected. My THAT Paper, *the one i told U i feel like eating a wood after doing it*, the result is sooo opposite to good! Others are OK i suppose. Just need extra more hardwork but that particular paper!! :( 


I really need to work my asses and squeeze my brain up for that..

BUSY!

This is such a busy week. Honestly it is. I've got lab practicals, case study, special study group, special group discussion, lectures, tutorials and lots of assignment to be submitted in a short time. 

I'm tired, exhausted and feels like dying. I'm drained of all that is taken up to feed myself.

GLUCOSE is a main source of energy and currently is the most wanted 'items' in the market. No glucose, brain can NOT work. So yeah. I keep feeding myself, 60/24/7 and i spent a lot the whole week just to eat. And when I said I ate a lot these past few days it really is a lot! :D I normally eat breakfast, lunch (sometimes 2x), dinner (at least 2 meals, HEAVY Meals) for dinner! XDDDD 

U don't believe me?????

HOW Sad. I know physically i look weak and adorably vulnerable. But buy me dinner and U will know the truth! :) 

Anyways. Yesterday afternoon, I and some of my group members paid a visit to Hospis Malaysia. It is some kind of a care centre which offers Palliative Care Service. What is Palliative Care? 

It is a nice place. A NGOs body. Offering free medical services**. and the staff and medical team is quite good and very reliable. they are a somewhat perfect team, if I may say that. First cos of the strong Interpersonal relationship between professionals and very highly competent and is optimising pharmaceutical care to the Max! Those are goals targeted in medical field nowadays, other than treating/cure patients.
It is an interesting experience actually. listening to their talk. knowing what they did, their services, their experiences. and the way that was told was amazing. I don't know. It's very motivational, I must say. And a wonderful things to learned. No patient visit, but it is really nice because they are very helpful and provides very informational talk. We don't really needs to ask questions cos they simply told us everything we needed and supposed to know and get from the visit. The place is beautiful too. 

And i'm very exhausted. Must prepare for next week Green Lung's activity and another practicals, quizzes and assignment. Man the next 3 weeks supposedly will be a chaotic period for me. :( But no matter. I want to go home this week! I missed my parents, my family, my kittens and cats. and the entire household. 

Good nite, people! :D 

A Happy Day!

Today is simply THE HAPPY DAY! :) 


Wae U ask? Oh simple. it's because : I had a great morning, a calm heart, I understand lectures, and I'm soooooooooooooooooooo FULL! :D 

Guess what? Me and 3 of my buddies went to the Seoul Garden *a new outlet in KL Festival Mall, Setapak* and spent almost 3 hours there!!~ Just great, ain't it! 

I'm sooo full at the end. i can't even eat a spoonful of ice-cream, LOL! and just imagine how hard it is when walking!! :D

And woopsie.. I really need to study. A happy and great day really sparks my inspiration. And i am ready to write my report! XD 

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because Miszc Jung Sap is super adorably cute and lovable, she presented U with  ♥ ! =)

Diary Entries! :)

14/11/2011

This is the first day of class after, well, a one week break. To say that its a BLACK Monday is really incomparable to whatever i had gone through! Ceh i know i'm exaggerating but darn, that's a tiring day nonetheless.

And just imagine. On the FIRST Day, class was supposed to start at 8am! No shit peeps, but the lecturer decided not to tell and NOT come. Can U just imagine how pissed I am? geeez, i know i have know right to be pissed cos its my responsibility as a student and blahblahblah. But then, it's just frustrating! its MONDAY and its the first day of class after a break, so how can I not be EMO-ing cos of that. And i'm so damn sleepy throughout the day, energy-less and soooo tired! LOL Tired, waeee? I don't know. Just dun ask! 

And i accidentally skipped one and a half hour NMR lecture. Damn I'd be clueless on the next lecture! Why la Dr. Khai suddenly decided to bring the class forward without informing. And later that noon, CHC lecturer decided to transfer her class just before lunch, haisz. All plans ruined. Wani and I were rushing to go to service centre, make bill payments and everything but we came late. Quiz for Nuclear Pharm already started and we ended up not doing it. But for all the kindness and his big heart, he allowed us to sit for the quiz after test. U can't imagine how grateful I am to En. Borhan!! Thanks a lot although i dun really think I did good for the quiz. My brain just can't seems to work and LOL i can't even hold the pen right! ~~

Later, i slept all the night, woke up on the midnight planning to study for NMR lecture la konon. But ended up twittering, spazzing and downloading from 12 to 4am! Huhu!~ 

Oh. I slept at Wani's room the day before cos my housemates *all of them* decided not to sleep at our apartment. NOT that I'm afraid just i don't feel good of sleeping alone! XD Haha.

Conclusion for this date :: I ate damn a lot, I spent quite a lot, my Pinky Vaio baby is at the service centre, and I'm exhausted of running all over places. And Twitter is addictive and veryy TIME-consuming! 




15/11/2011

Yeah, we planned to go to Seoul Garden tomorrow!! *jumps in happiness*

What happened today huh? Ergh, let me recall. Oh yeah, had a fun talk with Miss MolyGIRI, WaniGiri and ShakUra! :D Hahaha. LOL i came out with a brilliant nicknames!! :DDDDD

Actually i got that idea from a longggggggggggggggggggggg spazzing with Miss HeraPark or currently known as HeraPura. LOL that brought to the birth of YUNHO-Giri (Yunho + Onagiri)! LMAOOO! 

Just so you know. i am Sap + Tempura = SaPura! haha. thats my exact name. and yes, me, as had been agreed by many of the tweet-ies, am the Goddess of Tempura! The real LORD Of tempura! ROFL that's lame and unbelievable!! ^^

this is inspired by Japanese and Korean cuisine and we both are totally the type of girls who love spazzing, gossiping and came out with weird stuff and also we love the comfort given by the bed and the fluffiness of the comforter sooo much we wanted to remains wrapped and lying on the bed all day and nights! :D 

Anyways. yeah we officially went to a lecture for CHC with the Medic Students. We don't really get to know each other personally but it feels weird U know? But me and my girls are sooo chilling that we refused to think any of the INTERPERSONAL Relationship.. Not just yet!~ 


And coming up next is the Hospice Care visits and also I just had a great thoughts on some recent things happening in the country! again, I have no political intentions! :)

G'nite everyone! I need to have a good, effective study time for tonight (so need to log off) and U know, Look refreshing for tomorrow? :) 

- signing off at 12.32am, Malaysia-

Another rambles of life

Today is an NEW day : 01/11/11. Nov 1, 2011. What a DATE! :) Really great numbers. 
And its 2 months more to 2012. WOW! What a year. I've realised how much I had changed within a year and how much my life has changed and developed and is now entering a new stage of life.


WOW! :) Sometimes I might appear childish or playful but HALLO! Thats how we need to live. I can't stuck with my cold, mature face mode all time, can I? the thought of it itself was so depressing and LOL if i really implemented it, GOSH i don't know whats gonna happened! im so going to die of boredom due to lack of colors in my life! xD 




And being childlike isn't bad, correct? Say, do U remember whatever U've done during childhood? When U were a child, all U wanted is to grow up and becoming an adult. U behave just how your parents told U to properly behave. U can't really do things what we called as CHILD THINGS! :D
Thats why as a grown ups we tend to think like kids and acts kidd-ishly!! :D U think it's cute that is why U are doing it. BUT duh! It was sooo much FUN! 


And trust me. I know U know this too.. Life is as depressive and stressful as it is, soooo yeah just chill out and cheer up and live it up how ever U want it! 

IYE!! Tomorrow ::--> BIOPHARMACEUTICS AND PHARMACOKINETICS ... It's MATHS and Physiology all OVER AGAIN! Hwaiting!~~ :) 

A Moment I could never forget.

The title really carries some sentimental feeling, doesn't it? 
Like i'm having some awesome, beautiful memories. But NO! It does not even a little bit implied to any of the awesomeness or beautiful-ness one would imagine. Haisz, it's just sounds so exaggerating, ain't it? I know. Which is why. I am having such a 'fantastic' tiny, short, memorable, spectacular memory in class this afternoon. :D 


Just imagine this. Your lecturer is giving U guys some sort of a short quiz. Needs to answer verbally. So I was like, damn, i didn't even finish reading the lecture notes. How am I suppose to answer. And no, this is not a subject where U can simply 'goreng' all the basis U have. Thanks to Rutherford and Mendeleev, we need to remember all this principles and facts and figures and all the technical, physics stuff. OK that the two had now gone, we as future generation of scientist needs to flower and nourish the knowledge and equipped ourselves with it for the so-called advancement of technology.


Enough said. Anyways. As I was saying, we were having some sort of a short quiz. Then.... He called names. He didn't call me actually!? xD *WAH jumps in joy* Yet after few questions, he suddenly make a statement that 'whoever can answer this Qs, he/she will no longer be asked of another more advanced one'. that Qs somehow intrigues me and bombard me with lots more Qs... So me, as an impulsive, mild stage closely-related ADHD student raised my hands up and out of nowhere just scream out the answer!! :D
The thing is my answer will be correct if the said lecturer did NOT decide to change his last Qs at the very last minute. A few milliseconds before me answering it!~ So...... And that's what happened!! OMG!!! I could die just out of embarrassment!! *dig my own 7 feet under coming-to-be sweet home* NOT only that, Ah!!! I can feel myself embarrassed to the max!! gosh! Huah Huah! *cries a river* Everyone was like.... Er, shocked, confused and.. Huah! Some is amazed! Hahaha. Seriously after answering it and realised what had I just done, i fall of the chair and hide myself from 92 pairs of eyes!! ~~ Gosh i dunno now whether I am suppose to cry or just laugh! Haha.


And now when I reached home, safely comforted by my comfy blankets, I just couldn't stop thinking of that said event! :D I even laughed like some crazeey woman when I was taking a bath just now. Just.. What a Day! :) Haha. And yeah, that would be a Moment I could NEVER forget! Thank U! *applause*

Me Decide it!

I had long decided that : 

• Instead of being THE Best, I want to give all My Best! =) 
• To become an optimist, rationalist and balancing all thoughts as basis of my actions
• To live and to enjoy life like there is NO Tomorrow
• To love and to enjoy all time, make memories and appreciate every single time spend with the loved ones (which obviously are family and friends)
• To treasure what is worth to be treasured and to be thankful for whatever things U get in life no matter how good or bad it is, cos bad for now doesn't mean that it will not help U in future.
• To live the present with confidence and to keep things in balance.

So, yeah! :) 

just live

Because despite all the weaknesses. The imperfections. The failures. You just have to trust yourself and will yourself to keep going. Cos that is what life is all about. To keep living. 

No matter how imperfect U think of yourself. No matter how much failures or mistakes done, what is most needed by a person is the strength to keep going! =) 

Dari Dulu :)

Dulu. Masa zaman dulu-dulu. Dulu-dulu bila kita still muda remaja a.k.a fasa baru nak UP, friendship always become a main focus. Something that is kononnya something we most treasure la cos kawan is everything. U know all that right? where we feel the needs of having someone by our side : to mengutuk/gossip/spazzing/loving and hating together.? And bagi kita.. Kawan is the only person who will and is understanding us the most and whom essential for everything we did in life. Sampai pergi toilet masa class pun nak kawan temankan eventhough toilet tu is just like 2 m away. WOW! :) 
How great. 


After few years of searching and of course la through experience, knowledge, observations, etc. People change. Everything change. Friend comes and go. Some stay while the other, macam dissapears. Even the best and closest pun, some of them, whenever terserempak ke, buat tak kenal. Like we were total strangers. Macam tak pernah even nampak muka before. Kalau dulu, seboleh mungkin, baju pun nak pinjam kawan punya. All the personal items pun willing to share. Tp after few years/moments of not meeting, rasa like a total strangers. Even a brief smile pun tak nak tunjuk. *WT~~ Fish to all of them.* 


Kalau dulu, cari kawan nak yang cool, happening, fun to be with. kawan-kawan yang gila-gila and super hyper and memang 'enter water' type. Tak salah actually. Its UP to U! Macam mana pun, the person U can click well with, itu la the person U will stick to honestly. Dulu tak fikir panjang. What we want is just to be happy. To enjoy life kan? Tak salah pun. Depends on U la. Ur life! Bagi kita, nak cari kawan yang betul, yang akan bersama at all times. Tp, the definition of it... We make it on our own. Sebab pemikiran kita berbeza. We might have think of the same thing, but the way we apply and does things are different so, hasilnya berbeza. 

Bukan la nak kata, I choose a wrong person to be my friend(s). Hm, the same thing does happened to me. But, itu LUMRAH ALAM kan? Manusia. They are species that is subjected to evolution, changes non-stop over time. unstoppable and unpredicted. 

Ingat lagi kat some of my friends. Pernah la, macam he and she become someone I HATED THE MOST on that year. Honest BENCI! Jenis kebencian yang kalau dia berada 5m away from U, u macam hyperventilate, macam U r having some kind of respiratory depression that makes U go 50m away from every angle. Tapi, just because of one tiny, unexplainable acts, they have now become one of the most important, closest friends and indeed, is one of the person U needed the most. 

Ada pula some friends, they are the closest. Selalu gak slumber party sama-sama. Share top secrets, the best inner circle, the best of friend of all time la kononnya. Tp after a year of not meeting, terus macam change macam a rapid mutation has occur. Kalau jumpa pun, rasa macam strangers. And tetiba pula we can't PDA-ing. I mean like when U meet a long lost friend, *1 year ++ of not meeting*, hugging is like 'essential'. But tetiba plak kena labelled as Lesbo just because of that act is totally .... Yeah, U know what I'm gonna say but i'll keep everything a PG here! ;) 

Actually tak sure sangat why am I typing this long. And i have sooooooooo many more to write, but yeah... Assignments berlambak. And kena study like super duper Saiya. Anyhow, rasa sangat thankful for certain friends today. We've known for only a short while but U make me experience lots of things and expose and make me do things I have never done and experienced before. Of course, in a good way. 

Betulla kan. We all learn from another person. Just how we take the teaching, depends on our own thinking. Tapi, I really appreciate and rasa sangat terharu , honestly. 

Million of THANKS to U ! :) 

=)

Ramadhan ni, rasa rindu pulak petang-petang kat rumah nak tengok Diari Ramadhan Rafique! :) Especially dengan adik-adik saya.

Seriously, a very cuteeyy, niceee, sweet story. A simple story of a life of a family. ;D i know lots of kiddie. But we learned and become what we are today because of whom we had been when we were kids, teens rite? :D its obviously true. Lagi now, i mmg lepak kat rumah most of the time.. Unlike previous years.. So I surely will not miss an episode! xD

Absolutely will be grateful of TV3 if they decided to replay that drama again! ^_^ 

HAPPY RAMADHAN Everyone... =) 

♥

Actually, me wondering if i spell Ramadhan correctly? Was it Ramadan? But sounds the same, so forgivable kan? :D

New Experience

I went to UKMMC Counselling Week yesterday. Was in-charge of BMI Measurement and als give some help on BP section! 

Actually, I’m very lazy and reluctant U know cos U have to wake up veryyy early and go through a long hours of traffic jam before U reach the hospital. But when I start doing my job.. Gosh! It gives the most pleasant and nicest feeling ever! XD I found some patient are quite inquisitive and kind of likes to ask of soooo many infos.

And some are very particular of things!! They want us to measure their height and weight for like 2,3 times cos they are not satisfied and because the measurement is different from what they had previously! Some even came back few hours later and redo all test.. Not only BMI, as well as BP, glucose, etc. Its entertaining actually! J Hehe. U can see how people is... Even kids came for the check up. But sorry la adik! Most of the machines cannot be used for children below 12 la! Hehe. 

Sooo with full of patience and kind and care and generosity, I answered all their Qs with tenderness, love and care (TLC) !! Hahaha. And just layan them as good as I can! Its very exhausting really but when my shift ended that evening, I feel so sad and reluctance to go back pula! Hahaha. Ottoke? Oh yeah not to forget, there are even few who asked Qs about the machines too! But.. I know only in technical parts!!! Soo,.. I kinda blurts out in the so-called ‘alien language’ and they stared at me back blankly.. And i was like feel embarassed and stop explaining and even try very extremely hard to HUMAN-ised my explanation!! :D Haha.

I really wish to go there and do it again! I know I will do it everyday soon especially after my graduation. But.. I dunno how to describe but what I can tell is that I LOVE This feeling soooo much! J